Whatever is true, noble, right, pure, lovely and admirable, excellent and praiseworthy think on THESE things. Philippians 4:8
People have commented that I am always smiling. Always happy. The last time was just last week. I responded it was because I loved Jesus and Jesus is in my heart. Sometimes He’s really deep down inside my heart meaning I don’t always reflect my joy but He’s always there. Why don’t I always reflect my joy? I think I wobble a bit and lose my moorings when I lose sight of the good God has poured into my life and cease to be grateful. There are plenty of things in the news that are alarming, distressing, infuriating, dismaying. But God says don’t be preoccupied with those things that strike your heart with fear and rage. God is bigger than your worst fears. He says don’t be afraid. Cast all your cares on Him because He cares for you.
Yikes! Honestly I was a good sport but in my mind I had to fight off a panic attack. I salivate like a saint bernard and my jaws were never meant to open that wide. With all that, I feel like I can’t swallow enough and am near drowning on my back with both of the dentist’s hands in my mouth. Top that off with a nerve that refuses to numb despite repeated shots and you have a drilling torture chamber. His final words were “Just hang in there. I’ll be done soon.” This nighmare took 2 hours and 20 minutes of my precious time off. Boohoo! Sigh. But on the bright side, because I knew I was going to be a hot mess I minimized the misery by telling the dentist I needed a bite block to rest my jaws and I wanted to hold the suction so I wouldnt feel like I was drowning. This is what they brought out: an “isolight” that comes with a silicone bite guard so I can swallow, a flange that shields the back of my mouth from the shrapnel when he drills, built in suction and a light. I was not in dental heaven but it was a definite upgrade from hell to purgatory.
In everything I do or see God shows me another glimpse of His character and face. How I interpret the picture says more about me and my heart than about the mind and heart of God. If my heart is dark, confused, disillusioned, resentful then my mind will hear accusations, recriminations, and be closed to hearing messages of hope and joy and peace. I pray for God’s peace. I pray for God’s light and the ability to correctly appraise my circumstances and those about me. I want to be whole as God defines whole. I want to have eyes that see God moving, redeeming, healing and lifting us out of our prisons.
In the past I viewed prayer as all about the outcome: “Fix it God. I just want to get out of this pain!” Or “Just do this for me and I’ll be happy.” But lately my thinking about God and prayer has taken a turn. http://bible.com/n/bLHZ hmmm. how do I pray?