I have been on a journey seeking myself and seeking to be what God says I am but it’s really not my journey it’s a story about my Rabbi, my Teacher who wisely doesn’t start with the answer but in His questions leads my thoughts and develops a framework and a lens to accurately view myself, my circumstances, my relationships to my world and my God. My God, Creator, Rabbi, set His sights on me and pursued me while I was thinking I was looking for Him. He got me to thinking being whole is what I needed so I asked Him to make me whole. Then he made me think to be whole I needed to start by obeying the very first commandment, to love the Lord my God with all my heart and all my soul and all my mind and strength, but I realized I didn’t have it in me to do that. I failed utterly at that so I began asking to know Him, to know His grace and to see people and myself through His eyes. Now I am asking to really hear Him. I want to hear what He wants me to tell the people that pass through my life. I want to know Him and the power of His RESURRECTION and the fellowship of His suffering and be conformed to His death, even the death on the cross. So that sounds wierd but it’s actually what the Apostle Paul in the book of Philippians said was his greatest longing. My mom said true inner joy and freedom was not possible as long as we were hunting happiness. When we abandon the chase for self anything, you name it, and place all our banking on God, the One who knows and loves us best, we will have it all: true inner peace, fulfillment, a vision and purpose in life. All this to say God is breaking my heart now for people, that’s His greatest heartbreak and longing. He is giving me all sorts of words for people and they are all good, and I can’t wait to pass them on. I am learning to love everybody because that what God does. I am learning to broker the compassion and heart of God. I can’t think of a better journey and now I discover I have found what I first longed for. I am whole.